Being Humbled

Washing our vehicles when it is Oh So Cold yet Oh So Warm at the same time, just another awesome memory of 340 Birch St!

God, He rocks. He is so astounding, and surprising with every turn and every day I follow Him. He is constantly trying to teach me, constantly trying to show me where my faults are, how faithful He is and how much He truly loves me. These are all seemingly common things. We are all taught that "Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so!" Yet, it is also one of the messages that gets very lost in our daily lives and through the "two feet factor" (the gap between our head and our heart). So, God has been hitting me a lot recently with His love, His faithfulness and His joys. I am very thankful for this. There was a time in my first year of college (it bled into my second, but Saskatchewan and Canada can drain things out of you so easily, no offense intended to my true brothers and sisters of the North, this is a generalization) when I had so much joy and love for God. I was filled with His awesome splendor pretty constantly. This would well up inside of me so much that all I could do was say: "God Rocks!" This phrase hasn't been too constant with me in years recent. I lost that feeling somewhere along the way, learning about the Bible was nothing like living out the Bible.
Thank you Lord for times and days of change though! He has been building in me, He has been working in me, and the times of drought have been preparation for a time when I needed to rely on Him, to come to the point where I just cry out: "I NEED YOU GOD! I CAN'T DO THIS WITHOUT YOU!" (for those who don't know, this is a very good thing to realize when it comes to ministry).
In this I have realized that I need to let go of my hurts. I need to let go of my pain. I need to forgive those who have hurt me. So: I forgive you for saying the mean things, for making me cry, for making me feel worthless. It has taken healing only available through God, but I truly forgive you, I am also sorry for what I have done, for offending you. I am sorry for being bull-headed about it and letting this affect my love for you (I actually really didn't love you at all, more towards the opposite).
God humbled me, pointed out my need for Him, provided the healing I needed so that I could truly worship Him, and love Him. God is the one I needed, He could have even done it without me in all truth. But He chose to use me, to include me. He took away some of my sharp edges. Pastor Gene keeps telling me about how the first year of ministry hurts the most, is the most difficult. He tells me how this will be the toughest, yet most rewarding. God has really brought me here to work, to learn and to obey. I know this because it hurts so much. I know this because He keeps on shaving away the edges. Man it hurts, but it is so worth it.

This is from the Rev. Dr.'s blog (I pray I am using this with permission), but it needs to be spread, this is a sanctuary, a place to worship God. He wants us to meet with Him, to worship Him, to simply say that we need Him. Are you willing to do that?